Do you ever have those moments where you just feel like you can’t do anything right?
That’s how I felt last night and have been feeling for the past couple of weeks actually. Specifically when it comes to PARENTING. Being a mom has been the most challenging job I’ve ever had…that includes teaching and coaching moody and emotional (not all of them!) high school teenagers!
Since I stopped working, measuring myself as a mom is the only kind of real achievement I reach these days and it’s SO HARD. I feel like I can’t seem to get my daughter to do what she’s “supposed” to do according to all the parenting books.
It’s all kind of hitting me because she’s been waking up in the middle of the night for the last couple of months— after being a GREAT sleeper. As I went to rock her last night I just broke down crying because I felt like a failure.
My brain was telling me I should be letting her cry it out, not rocking her back to sleep. Then I just started listing all the other “milestones” she hasn’t met and everything I was doing wrong as a mom. I can’t seem to win.
Do you ever feel like this?
I’ve heard it gets easier with the second child, but right now I’m just feeling broken. I know these are lies in my head and deep down I know I need to do what is best for my daughter and me—but there are still so many boxes I’m trying to check! I see everyone else’s Facebook and Instagram posts and again I keep asking myself, “WHAT AM I DOING WRONG?!”
Liz reminds me day in and day out that God perfectly chose me to be the mom for my daughter. I really need to remind myself of this truth. I need to pat myself on the back for the things I am doing RIGHT instead of beating myself up for all the things I am doing WRONG.
And most importantly, I need to pray for God’s wisdom.
I don’t need to listen to what the world says. Yes, there is great advice out there, but with my Type A personality it truly drains me mentally and physically when I attempt to keep up with what everyone else is doing.
If you’re feeling the same way I am, know you’re not alone. I’m a mom, struggling just like you. And I’m hoping we can encourage and love one another through this journey of motherhood.